Hello

Such a simple word yet one that can be life altering.

Where would you be without your hello's? What have your hello's led to?

In the womb, in classes, in tears, and in joy, my hello's have molded me into the person that I am today. Taking me on a journey of life that I would never have imaged or dreamed of, I wouldn't trade my hello's for anything in the world.

While our hello was nine months in the making, our souls were intertwined from the moment our hearts started beating. And while yours has stopped beating, mine is now beating twice as fast. For you are me and I am you. Without our hello, I wouldn't know the true happiness one could get from sorrow. 

Our ironic hello led us down a consequential path. Both truly seeing the effects of life and death at an early age, our souls bonded before we were even aware. And while our lives have led us in, at times, different directions, I knew that when I met you I would never be the same. Without our hello, I wouldn't be as creative and inspired as I am today. 

While I never wanted to say hello, I forced myself to take that courageous step, and for that I am most grateful. Going through life's journey with you has been a crazy, emotional, wonderful, and impactful experience. Through my tears and happiness, we've become tangled into a bond that will never be broken. Without our hello, I wouldn't have been able to survive life.

Our fateful hello has led me down a path of healing. Curling up and cuddling upon seconds of our introduction, my stone-cold heart melted. Since then you've taught me how to love and trust. I wouldn't want to be locked into life with any other soul. Without our hello, I wouldn't have become as open to life as I am now.

Who would have thought just how powerful hello could be?

No fears and limitless, MHF

The Aging of Time

Having just watched The Age of Adaline, I was drawn to this movie as it spoke to my heart. For Adaline was constantly running, never fully living in the moment just like I was.

Michael when you died, I was struck with a bolt of lightening, just like Adaline. While it took her over one hundred years to come-to, it only took me five. These past five years have been filled with many ups and downs, all resting on the notion that I can't truly live without you. Wrapped in guilt, sadness, and at times depression, I forced myself to try to live in the moment. Constantly searching, I never knew if I would ever find peace.

Then it happened.

Slowly and with care, peace has overcome me. While this peace at times can be not be peaceful, it is cupped with the notion of moving forward. And while I am moving forward, I am learning that it's okay to be selfish. For my selfishness is making me pursue my dreams and more importantly, it's making me closer to you.

So while one door is closing and another is opening, I am learning that closing doors is not always easy. Necessary and hard, I am living my life in the moment. For everything will be okay, including my new found peace

No Fears and Limitless, MHF