Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Weathering Love

"Wonders if her love is strong enough to make him stay" - ZBB, Colder Weather

Her answer is in devastation. Always devastation.

Why? Why is love so hard? Why is love so hard for me? Why is love so hard for the ones that I'm attracted to the most? Why?

Why? Why do I feel broken? Why am I attracted to the ones that are broken too? Why?

Why? Why do I think that love will heal all wounds? Why am I attracted to the ones who believe that love will heal their wounds? Why?

Why? Why am I scared to find open and honest, jaw-dropping, heart-pounding L-O-V-E? Why am I attracted to others who are scared to find open and honest, jaw-dropping, heart-pounding L-O-V-E? Why?

Why? Why isn't my love strong enough to make them stay? Why isn't their love strong enough to make me stay? Why?

Michael, for me love and devastation go hand-in-hand. I think that they always will. When you left me, when my love wasn't strong enough to make you stay, when my love wasn't strong enough to make me leave, I didn't realize that it would lead me down this path. 

Broken, lost, and heartless, my life is now filled with longing. Longing for a true love to come in and rescue me. But if I were to stumble upon it, would I embrace it? Would I run from it? What would happen?

Will my love ever be good enough for someone other than you or will my love always be filled with weakness and devastation? 


Only you know. 

...

No fears and limitless, MHF. 



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