Conquering You

My conqueror. And you are just that. 

For the past four years you have had me, all of me. While I thought you were brought into my life to become my soulmate, my saving grace - I was wrong. I now know that we will never be together. While this fact would once have had me in a crippling heartache, I am surprisingly okay.

Capturing my heart, body, and soul, you slowly seduced me into becoming yours. Forever loyal to you and only you, I led my life with the notion that you were that all I needed. For when we would be together, all the troubles from my past would magically go away. And while I can say that you were my only seducer, that would not be entirely true. 

Meeting you in one of the darkest times of my life, I not only wanted to be conquered and seduced but I needed to be. My love for you, the love that we shared was a love that I desperately craved, a love that we both desperately needed. While not easy or healthy at times, our relationship helped distract me from the loss of my twin, from the almost loss of my own life. 

Absorbed in you, the past four years have been focused on how you conquered me. While I can pretend to feel hurt from the way our lives have evolved, I am not. For I know that had I not met you, my heartache would have been much worse. You were a distraction that I needed and for that, I thank you. 

no fears and limitles, MHF